“I am learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me.”— Unknown (via bnmxfld)
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It’s been rough. Things are shit. I feel like absolute shit. Things feel so temporary. Happiness feels fleeting. I honestly feel worthless and idk what to do. I don’t know who to talk to anymore and it scares the shit out of me cause I feel so fucking alone. Honestly it’s a pain to keep on living and I feel like a fucking burden to everyone around me and myself. It’s pure self-loathing. I absolutely hate myself. I feel incredibly pathetic and disgusting and I just want to go home and stay home forever. My heart hurts. My heart really hurts. My heart hurts so much to the point that I can’t even cry anymore cause I feel so numb to cry it out. Life sucks.
Dear B, where do I begin? A multitalented individual who remains humble and genuine. And even with that description, it’s still an understatement. You’re a living legend and angel. Although I started this journey stanning PCY, you made your way up and eventually claimed my heart as well. Your power and love are overwhelming I honestly surrender myself to you. Life has always been rough for me, but just looking at your smile instantly brightens up my day. You make me the happiest and I thank God every night for creating you. An actual sunshine.
You are so strong. You have always been protective of us and always stood up for yourself. I admire you so much. You are my role model; my hero. I don’t know what I did to deserve you, but I am going to work my hardest to prove to myself that I do deserve your love. You make me want to become a better person, you are my strength and motivation in life, you are my reason to live.
I’m sorry for not being there with you when you needed it, for not being able to prevent pain, for letting horrible things happen to you. I pray to God every night for your safety, health and happiness. I vow to protect you with my life. Know that whenever you’re sad, your brothers and exols will be here for you until our last breath. We will always stand by and with you through everything. You don’t even have to ask. We love you so much.
Thank you for working so hard for us, for always believing in is, for cheering us up, for thinking of us, for taking care of us, for LOVING us. You make us incredibly proud everyday. Always take care of yourself. Eat, rest, have fun. I want you to live your life for yourself. I pray for you every night, B. Your health, safety and happiness are my top priority.
I’m beyond blessed to have seen you w my own eyes in #ElyXiOnInManila. You were beyond breathtaking I was too stunned to even cry. And I even got to sing you a happy birthday!!! You deserve this love and more, B.
If love had a human form, it would be you. I’m beyond grateful to exist in the same lifetime as you. You have no idea how much you mean to me and how much I love you. Happy Birthday, B. Be happy, always. ♥
Aaaahh it’s done! Just entered my fanart on fanbook for blooming day contest so it would be great if yall could click the link and leave some hearts!! Thank you ♥
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https://www.fanbook.me/artwork/1050192
twitter: pcyflowerboy
Hello EXOLs it’s #ElyXiOninManila next weekend❣️❣️❣️ & I’ll be selling my kokobop stickers during concert day outside MOA arena at 1pm! I have 30 pcs per member only so hurry! 1st come 1st serve basis
P 20 indiv
P 120 full set
Please message me on my twitter account “pcyflowerboy” to reach me! (And don’t hesitate to follow me there as well for updates hahaha) Spread the word and I can’t wait to see you all there 💖
Martin Johnson Heade, Sunset: The Harbor at Rio.
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Also: Whenever I hear a guy go “Oooh, but women don’t like porn” i think of the enormous amount of porn in fandom created by women for women and all I can think is: “Well, maybe we just don’t like your porn…”
We like our porn with feelings and character development and regular updates on AO3
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Martin Johnson Heade, Sunset: The Harbor at Rio.
(Source: the-athenaeum.org, via rarings)